On Bush and other things

So Maribel, Annie's childhood friend, and her boyfriend Pablo are in town visiting for a few days. It's gonna be fun to hang out with them. They are going to be leaving to Vancouver tomorrow morning and I'll be meeting up with them tomorrow night. This weekend will be lots of fun! Wohooo!
So I watched the presidential debate last night and even though I'm not a political person, nor do I want to talk about politics here, I must say that I hope the polls are right. The madness needs to stop and the inept jackass needs to be gone. I'm a resident in the U.S., therefore I can't vote, but if I could, there is no way in hell I wouldn't. it would be irresponsible of me not to. Therfore, let me sound like P.Diddy and VOTE.
On other news, my dad is doing better. I spoke to him today and he is recovering, slowly, but surely. I'm glad I was able to be there for the surgery and so relieved that it all went as planned.
I am very thankful for my family, friends and coworkers support throughout the whole ordeal. They were unbelievably awesome.

Papacito

Last night I watched 21 Grams with Sean Penn and Benicio del Toro. It was an excellent movie. My roomate didn’t think so but I thought it was great, so crude and not sugar coated, very back and forth (in lack of the right terminology). Plus, Benicio del Toro is one fine motherfucker. Mmmm. Holy shit, not even when I was in highscool did I drool over somone on TV.

Past

I hate the fact that I sometimes live in the past. I need to stop that now. I tend to spend my days reminiscing about the good times I had and forget that today is here and that if I keep on doing this, I will live my life caring about the wrong people because I don't give new people and opportunities a chance. I'll start with the small things, as of today, the people that are blocked in my MSN list will remain blocked and that is it. Pheew..

Office space moment

There is this asshole in my office, we’ll call him Mr. Jackass. He is three feet away from me talking to one of the directors telling him a story about a game he played in a casino with fake money. He is explaining, in painful detail, what the game consists on like if it was the real deal betting. He is saying that he won up to 4 million dollars and that whew, he made a bad choice and lost it all, therefore he will never come across that much money. He is going on and on (loudly, I might add) about what he would do with that much money if he ever had it. It was fake money dude! You will never have it to take that rip to Spain you are talking about! You are too damn stupid and lazy and ridiculous. Oh, oh…his last comment (the director is slowly walking away while Mr. Jackass still flaps his lips) "Some people were born to be investors, and some of us like to have fun" Snerk, snerk…. God, what an idiot. This is the same guy that when we had out company meeting went and napped in a bench for the entire event. He just aggravates me. Grrr. Sorry, had to vent.

Trying new look...

shoop shoop

I'm listening to old music thanks to my DJ friend in Argentina. I've had a really relaxing weekend. It's been a week since I got back form my trip and even though I came back to a few messes, all in all, things are OK.
I really need to get this blog fixed. I don't like how it looks now and it has a lot of imperfections. Maybe I'll dedicate the rest of my evening to giving my page a face lift. Expect something different next time you come back.

Francis

Yesterday F. and I got together. He picked me up at around 4:30 and we went to my neighborhood bar for a beer. We talked and talked and talked some more. He said that he loves me and that he msses me and that he wants to get back together. I told him that it would tak a miracle for that to happen beucase the trust is gone. It was bitter sweet, it was what I've been waitng for but at the same time dreaded. I still love him, I do but I don't see us getting back together. Damn, why does life have to be so complicated?

Surprise surprise, it’s you again
When will you learn little one
That when it comes to the that
You better stir clear from me

You now will spin
spit and kick
Someday when you look back
You will realize
That you were wrong And I was right

Back to the salt mines

Volvi despues de mucho tiempo. Tuve que irme de viaje de emergencia a ver a mi papa ya que lo operaron del corazon, triple bypass a corazon abierto. Estuve en mi casa, con mi familia despues de cuatro años. La operacion salio bien y ya se esta recuperando. Fue tan lindo ser hija nuevamente, poder estar ahi y saber que va a estar bien. Comparti con mi mama, con mis hermanos y vi a todos mis amigos. La ultima semana que estuve alla, ya despues de saber que mi papa iba a estar bien, sali y la pase increible. Pronto veran las fotos. Estoy nuevamente en Seattle y continuare escribiendo en esta pagina asi que no cambien de canal.

Song from the past

Unexpected Lovers
(LIME)

How can there be no love
No feeling of passion too
The way we were dancin' love
How could it be I'm through

We spend the night together
Until the morning light
Baby do you remember
The music in our eyes

Such an enchanting evening
A lovers romantic night
The moon and stars are leavin'
The sea was glowing bright

We were unexpected lovers
Not just ordinary lovers
Sharing unexpected lover
My true love

We love like no other lovers
like no other lovers do
The way we kissed each other
And help each other too

When will we ever love again
And share another night
Should we ever meet again
To love each other right

for you...

Sad eyes

Ayer alguien me dijo que tengo la mirada triste, que ya no soy la misma. Eso me puso la mirada triste.

Charly

Charly is my exboyfriend of three years. He lives in Argentina and loves music. I dated him in 1995 until 1998 and the way that man loved me, no one has ever loved me. Him and I were a team, we were together every minute of everyday. He used to hold my hand when we walked down the street and used to make love to me every night no matter how tired he was. He played excellent music for me and used to tell me "te amo" at least 8 times a day. He wanted me to have his babies and wanted to make me his wife. Charly was handsome and a good man. He was a bit possessive and jealous but he treated me like no other. I miss him.

We have been talking lately and so many memories have been flooding my mind, like the times when we used to sleep in my tiny bed in my tiny room in my house in Buenos Aires. The many times we sat out in the cold at 4 in the morning waiting for the bus. All the weekends at his house, lying in bed, making love and listening to Lime. Like the time when he came out of the subway after a big fight the night before and he just hugged me and told me "let’s forget about everything, I just want to love you". Or the time when walking down Rivadavia we both looked at the mirror above us and he told me " estamos tan enamorados". I remember all the nights spent at our local café, smoking cigarettes and telling each other everything in our pasts. So many good memories. I regret having had hurt him.

Dad

My dad had a heart attack a few days ago. It has been hell just thinking about how far away I am right now and how I can’t give him a hug and tell him it’s all going to be alright. He’s in the hospital in Trinidad and according to the doctor, he’s going to be o.k. I am very worried though. I love him so much, he’s the one person that I admire the most. Please send good thoughts his way.

Circus

Friday night I went to the circus. It was a community circus called the Cirque de Flambe because of its focus on fire. It was awesome! We had so much fun and I can’t wait till Joel forwards me the pictures since I forgot my camera. The rest of my weekend was so quiet. I decided to stay home and that is exactly what I did. I spoke to my friend D. Lorena in Spain, my friend Silvana in Miami and caught up a little bit on my reading and laundry. All in all, a pretty domestic, quiet weekend. Next weekend will be crazy!

Ball and Chain

I stayed in last night. In the silence of my home and the wee hours of the morning, I painted this.

My Weekend

My Weekend

Friday: I went to work, finished up a few things I had pending and the day flew by. I got out and we all had dinner at my house since it was Julie's last day in Seattle and them we drove her to the airport at around 8. There was such a horrible traffic jam that we didn't get back into the city until 10:30. We all went to sleep pretty early since we were going camping the next morning.

Saturday: We woke up late (go figure), we lazed around the house until 1pm and then we headed out. The original plan was Joel, Annie and I were gonna go camping to the Cascade Mountains but at last moment we changed plans and decided to go stay at his house in Wenatchee (it was his grandmother's house, but she passed away last year). The drive out there was really nice, we took Highway 2 all the way, which is the most scenic route ever. With a little help from our friendly buddah, we had a really good time. We arrived in Wenatchee, unloaded the car, looked around the house, turned on the water, heater and such and went out for a ride looking for a park that Annie knew from previous day trips to the area. We found it, we sat around, talked, took funny pictures and headed back home. The area is full of orchards so it smells really nice, but on our way back there were so many bugs, the whole Jeep was loaded with them. We went to the store to buy a few necessities and went home to get dressed to go meet Joel's friends at the bar. We han a few drinks at this really nice bar that overlooks the entire town and laughed at all the fools that were dancing. We had bought "Lost in Translation" before going there so when we got home, they made dinner and we got comfortable to watch the movie. Joel was being funny, he was pretty gone, I must say :)

Sunday: We woke up late (again) and went out for breakfast. There was a little incident were we all got in a bad mood and didn't enjoy breakfast at all. After that, everything was fine so we went home, picked up and headed out. Joel told us about a route that gets us back into Seattle through a very rocky path which takes about three hours so we decided we'd go for it. We first stopped at an Antique store where we got a little carried away and spent like 2 hours there, but it was fine because I found some miniature books for my miniature bookcase. We finally started heading back through the road he told us. Let me tell you something, craziest ride ever. It was so damn dangerous, there were moments were I felt " O.K. , I guess this is how I'm gonna go". There really is no road, you are climbing up high mountains through paths full of rocks and cliffs that if you look make you dizzy. We made it out fine, except for a stupid bee stinging me in my leg. Annie drove all the way until we got to Ellensburg and then I took over. They fell asleep, which was fine with me because I was really enjoying the silence. I literally flew to Seattle. We got home, showered and went to bed. All in all, a great weekend.

Monday: I didn't go to work. I woke up early, cleaned the house and checked my e-mail. I watched T.V. and then called Scott to see if he wanted to do lunch and maybe a movie. I picked him up, we had sushi in Ballard and then went to The Majestic (my favorite theatre in town) and watched "Collateral". The movie was O.K., a little slow for my taste, but worth watching a salt and pepper Tom Cruise. I came home, an hour later Joel and Annie came and we all went to Joel's house to cook dinner. My plan was to to spend my evening painting but since they insisted I go, I took my canvases to his house and he set everything up for me (he's sweet like that). Annie made dinner and I painted. I got a little frustrated at first but towards the end I was happy with how it was coming along. It?s not even close to being done but it's starting to shape up. We ate dinner and went for a little walk. At around 11:30, Annie and I headed home. Pasamos por la casa de K. y no lo vimos. Queriamos ver si estaba su auto pero nada asi que vinimos a casa y al rato volvimos a ir. Esperamos un rato y tal cual era esperado, salio de su casa con la novia. La vimos bien de cerca porque ella, con la amiga, pararon en la gasolinera y la llegamos a ver. Me senti muy mal por Annie porque se que aunque ella diga que no le importa, eso duele. We came home and went to sleep.

Trail view of Diablo Lake

Diablo Lake, Washington

Beautiful drive to the mountains. It takes about two and a half hours to get there from Seattle through the Cascade Mountains but it is so worth it. We go camping there a few times a year and the view will always leave me in awe, This time around,it was just a day trip but it was just perfect, sunny and not a cloud in sight. When I go there, I feel like if I could stay forever and times like those make me fall in love with the Pacific Northwest. Here is a little picture of Diablo Lake but to be honest, it does it's magic no justice. I was able to take a walk trough a trails and take pictures, read my book in a place that seems like if it was made for fairies and elves.

Tu conmigo

Efimeros instantes de la vida
Que van dejando huellas
Tan cortos y dulces
Tan vivos y locos
tan llenos de ti

Los años vividos han sido
Nada mas que un preludio
Al anuncio definitivo de
Que en realidad nunca fuiste mio

Tu conmigo y yo siempre sin ti

Ayer comprendi, mirandonos inmobiles
Que mi vida contigo y sin ti esta llena de vacios
Que los momentos compratidos
En la larga espera de la nada
Eran lo poco y lo unico que quedaria de ti en mi.

What have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
(NIN)

Y me duele saber que yo tambien fracase. Y ahora comprendo muchas cosas, hoy mucho mas que ayer.