Yesterday F. and I got together. He picked me up at around 4:30 and we went to my neighborhood bar for a beer. We talked and talked and talked some more. He said that he loves me and that he msses me and that he wants to get back together. I told him that it would tak a miracle for that to happen beucase the trust is gone. It was bitter sweet, it was what I've been waitng for but at the same time dreaded. I still love him, I do but I don't see us getting back together. Damn, why does life have to be so complicated?